Embracing the NOW…

One of the things that I’m not so good at but am trying to improve is embracing the season of life that God has me in right NOW.

I spent years wishing that I was anywhere but where God had me in life and as a result I missed out on so many opportunities. I saw what God was doing and the good that came out of those years but I refused to acknowledge it. I refused to let go of the plans that I had for my life and embrace the bigger and better plans that God had for me. It wasn’t until I was almost out of this season that I realized how good it truly was…

But here’s the thing. I didn’t learn my lesson very well. Because about a year later I started wishing that I was older and had the life that I’d always dreamed of–a home and family of my own.  So, I started watching videos of these families and wondering what I would do if I were in their situations. I became blinded and refused to admit that the chances of me going through exactly what they went through and feeling those exact same emotions was EXTREMELY TEENY TINY.

As a result of this I became depressed and grumpy. My life was totally NOT going in the direction that I wanted. I began to think that this life that I dreamt of was NEVER going to happen. I spent my days living vicariously through others and that was only making me feel worse. I knew that life was going on around me but I again refused to acknowledge it. Chores that needed to be done weren’t being thought of  and the business end of things was moving slower than an inch worm.

It took me a few months once I stopped watching the videos to begin to see just how good my life really was. I have a great and loving supportive family both immediate and extended. Sure, we’re crazy (or should that be spelled Krazee??) (; and we have our own sometimes odd way of doing things and communicating but all families do. That’s what makes each and every family special and unique. I began to slowly embrace my life. Realizing the joy that was in each day.  I began to journal; and open my eyes and I began to see what God had blessed me with.

Did I do this perfectly? NOPE. And I still mess up DAILY. But I am learning that life is a journey, an unexpected adventure that we must embrace…because although scary and sometimes downright ugly it all comes out well in the end!

I’m only 21. I serve a big, loving God that has good plans for me. He is working to transform me and mold me into who He wants me to be day by day. I just have to yield to Him and find the little bits of joy and sparkle in each day and thank Him for the work He is doing and the place that He has put me.

I want to encourage you to embrace the season of life that you are in right now. You may not like it. It may NOT be what you planned that your life would look like at this point. But I want to remind you that God loves you. He has you right where you are for a very special reason. One that you may never know, but you can place your trust in the God that does. Know that He is with you, molding you into the person that will serve and glorify Him best. Everything will happen in His time…

Until next time,

Bailey Sue